Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Ready or Not here it comes... Christmas that is

I've had a couple of years of not really wanting to celebrate in the usual way.  Christmas especially.  There have been too many sad times for me at this time of year.  I want to scream "I don't want you to spend Christmas with Jesus"  I want you to be with me.  But... that is not in my power.  It's been a year TODAY that my mom passed away.  My sister Donna is not doing any better, she's so sick, if she could see herself...  So you can understand why putting up a tree and decorations might not happen today.  My home is in complete disarray and it's not getting better.  In fact with my son coming home tonight, I'm sure it will get worse.  AND quite honestly I want to crawl back into my warm bed, and stay there.  It snowed again last night, and handy Andy couldn't start the snow blower, so that's now on the porch right next to my very minimal decorations.  I feel like I should just put lights on it, if only I could find them.  No baking has happened, little decorating and very little shopping.  The most I have accomplished is writing Christmas cards.  Not mailed them yet, but they are written.  So when Sandi at Wayside Treasures said "ready or not here it comes"  I thought, you are absolutely right, it's coming whether(I'm sure that's spelled incorrectly) I'm  ready or not. 



9 comments:

Beth Niquette said...

My sweet Irene, I am having some of the same feelings as you. My sweet Daddy flew away to heaven just before November last year...my husband had cancer surgery just after Dad's memorial. Dear husband is doing great...but for the first time I am grieving the loss of my dear Dad.

((hugs)) You, dear Irene, are in my prayers--we are sisters of heart, you and I. The true message of Christmas is hope. Don't give up hope, my sweet Friend.

Let hope fill your heart. We can be prayer partners in this. ((hugs)) Lots of love to you, dear dear Irene.

Nise' said...

Sorry this is a sad day for you, I hope your heart is healing as your grieve the loss of your Mom. Prayers for your Sister.

JoAnn said...

Sending prayers for your sister and good thoughts to you today...

Jenny the Pirate said...

Oh dear Irene, I am so sorry for your heavy heart. I understand. Some days during the Christmas season I have to push myself to get in the spirit. Even when there are no "big" problems looming, it tends to be a holiday that makes me feel bruised. But loss is such a leveler. Sometimes the sorrow just doesn't want to let us go. I pray you'll find the strength to get done what absolutely must be done, with the help of your loving family, and that together you will all enjoy a very Merry Christmas. xoxo Jenny

bermudaonion said...

My dad passed away on December 29, 2010 so I know exactly how you feel. It's a tough time of the year for so many people.

Weekend-Windup said...

Feeling worried to hear about the sad news. Don't put down your heart. There may be some surprise happen during this year in the grace of god. Make your mind to be strong and to face all the situations.

Annie said...

Yes, Irene, I know exactly how you feel..having lost a couple of people very close to me too just before Christmas..It really is hard to get into the spirit of it all sometimes.
I remember one year I was pretty bad, and the kids did pretty well, at cheering me up, without being asked. I pray that God will be with you, and you are able to appreciate the love of your friends and family.
My prayers for your sister too...it is hard when you have a loved one unwell. Blessings on you both! And your families.

Vicki said...

So sorry you're having such a hard time. I understand how you feel about your mom and sister. It's so hard to get in the Christmas spirit for me too.

Christmas was always my mom's favorite time of year and she always made it special. Without her it just doesn't feel the same, and I haven't put up a tree or any decorations... doubt I will either.

Will keep Donna in my thoughts and prayers, and pray that God comforts you in this tough time.

Donna said...

There are times you just have to downsize the expectations and only concentrate on the essentials. I hope that you find some joy in the Christmas season!

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